Category Archives: Heart matters

Once again ‘interesting’ times loom high on the horizon.

Today, like most days in my Awesomeverse,has been a long journey, living in the moment as much as possible.. From the total fail of still being full of snotty cold, to the triumph of seeing our Henry (similarly afflicted but much more so) get much better and doing a ton of house work almost effortlessly (which got me a heartfelt hug from our Rach, who usually despairs on that front). Late in the day some one close to us gave us some Game changing news, which isn’t very good and needs to be handled as gracefully as possible (so I won’t go into the details of what). It would be the sort of thing that could have driven me into a state of total panic, which I would loose myself in for months.(like what happened this time last year) Instead I have quickly regained my calm and assessed the situation for what it is. If nothing else it is going to bring about a change in my family’s day to day routine, and I hope that with clear heads and compassionate hearts we can do the best for all concerned.

While musing about this just now, the following snippet popped up and  resonated strongly with me:

“… but when I said that nothing had been done I erred in one important matter. We had definitely committed ourselves and were halfway out of our ruts. We had put down our passage money— booked a sailing to Bombay. This may sound too simple, but is great in consequence. Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamt would have come his way. I learned a deep respect for one of Goethe’s couplets:

Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it.

Boldness has genius, power and magic in it!”

W.H. Murray, , The Scottish Himalayan Expedition (1951)
Anyhoo, just when you thought things were settled in the Newt household, here we go again 😉

Life and Death

One of the milestone moments of 2012 was the death of my Father, Derek Newport. At some point I’ll post something about how I feel about his death, but its not the time at the moment with the world stuck in the winter blues.

However two music related pieces that struck me cold this morning.

One of my favourite musicians Wilko Johnson is talking on the BBC about how he feels now that he’s been diagnosed with Terminal Cancer.

  • Wilko Johnson: ‘Terminal cancer has made me feel alive’
  • “The things that used to bring me down, or worry me, or annoy me, they don’t matter anymore – and that’s when you sit thinking ‘Wow, why didn’t I work this out before? Why didn’t I work out before that it’s just the moment you’re in that matters?’

    “Worrying about the future or regretting the past is just a foolish waste of time. Of course we can’t all be threatened with imminent death, but it probably takes that to knock a bit of sense into our heads.”

    Meanwhile another one of my favourite musicians, and friend, Keef Baker has a new lp out inspired by the death of his father last year, under his Nimon moniker which is him doing ambient using only a guitar.

  • Nimon – Drowning in Good intentions.
  • Keith ‘keef’ baker has been a musician for over 20 years and has worked in a very wide range of styles. his output of side projects since the last ‘keef baker’ release shows just some of the stylistic range. ‘sharps injury’: powernoise, ‘ocdc’: complextro, ‘crackpuncher’: grindcore, even comedic ebm: ‘mandro1d’. not to mention various micro-projects and collaborations. but nimon is something different, something much more personal. written at a time just before and not long after the death of a close family member when nothing was soothing his soul except the intensely pure sounds of brian eno, sunn o)), stars of the lid, christian fennesz and their ilk. the intention behind nimon was to create ambient music by deploying the limitless potential of the electric guitar as the only instrumentation, pouring the pain he was feeling into his playing and then tearing those recordings into pieces using sound design, reversing, pitch manipulation, time stretching and a whole world of both standard effects and maxforlive modulations resulting in deep, majestic ambient compositions, developing dense worlds of ethereal, dreamy atmospheres. with ‘drowning in good intentions’ nimon manages the remarkable feat of channeling deep emotion into a sound that’s uncompromisingly advanced and cerebral. a constant flow of superior, shimmering drones, melodic and cinematic with a dark, but sweetly sorrowful elegiac quality. ‘drowning in good intentions’ is a simultaneously a trip into despair, grief and hope.

    The Heart Matters

    Short version: The Mind on its own is pretty darn fun, but put Mind + Heart together and you’ve got something that’s infinitely Awesome 🙂

    Longer version: This something I’ve suspected for a while, and as a believer in the Chakra system (of which the Heart is one of the Severn energy centres) something I made a conscious effort via a magical working to ‘open’ that energy centre last year (the key phrase of which “Do you want to be a Grumpy old  man”). A working I might hasten to add had a very dramatic and noticeable effect in the second half of the year 🙂

    However all that was slightly turning on the tap compared to what happened when some new information, summed up by the the video at the end of this post, unlocked new realisations on how central the Heart is and how to practically use it in every day life.

    Important realisations.

    • The Heart is the centre which all other energy centres send energy flow through in your personal system (micro), and the link to the external energy grid (i.e. the rest of the world). If your Heart is closed then this puts a squeeze on the other energy centres, and in time the whole thing breaks down.
    • Also the Heart thinks. There is evidence from the scientific community on this one (see linked article below and the video at the end of this post). This is codified in our language by the old saying “Follow your Heart”. A lot of our problems are caused by over reliance on the Mind, and ignoring the Heart. Get the two working together and you’ve got a very strong partnership. I’ve been putting the principle I started this post with (the short version) into practice for the last seven days and its had a huge effect on my life. During that time I’ve had a very intense family crisis that having my Heart switched on has allowed me to zoom through it and actually come out ahead.
    • “Compared to the electromagnetic field produced by the brain, the electrical component of the heart’s field is about 60 times greater in amplitude, and permeates every cell in the body”, Open your Heart and you are working on energy plus when compared with just working on Mind alone.
    • You don’t have to do some intense  form of yoga, kung-fu, magic, charakra working to open the heart and work with it. Just say hello, give it a bit of attention and let it do its thing.  Meditation, Yoga etc. may help you develop and refine, but you can’t beat just listening and acknowledging it and building it up by living with it switched on.
    • You’ll know when your Heart is open, since you’ll feel a warmth throughout your body, your thoughts will be fluid and you’ll generally feel upbeat and at ease with the world. It will also be very difficult to knock you from that position, unless you actively give into Fear (because you think you should do) which closes down the Heart and pushes you into Mind.

    I realise I’ve probably jumped ahead and mentioned stuff a few folk who read my blog will be unfamiliar with. But this realisation really has linked and made sense of a lot of things that I’ve been working with for a good 20 years and sharply upped the ante of my life. I therefore felt it important enough to dive right in and shout out.  From now on I’ll be categorising posts that deal with what is popularly termed “the metaphysical” with the category “Heart matters”.

    Right the following video is a good 12 minute summary, enjoy and enrich.

    The End of the Begining pt1

    “Things will get much easier very soon, as long as you engage with it now“  says the voice straight from the ever loving pulsating source.

    Did you receive that one? I did loud and proud about a week ago, a couple of days before life got completely crazy , even by the high standards crazy set by my good self in my drug n booze addled twenties. Except this time I’m completely sober and apart from a few annoying habits pretty tight sanity wise.

    ……its been a rough time but equally a  time of magic, wonder and awe.

    The world is changing, for the better I believe 🙂

    Watch the skies. Observe your inner world. Its all important.

    (More to follow)

    The Magnificent Journey begins !

    So here we are all present and correct in February.

    January was a hell of a month and whizzed past at a terrifying pace.  Gradually I got used to the fact I now work two mini-weeklets seperated by a day at home. Its nice since it gets me away from the stress at work and into the bussom of my family on Wednesday, when I’m Dad in charge!!

    Went down to Sheffield a the end of the month and back in time ten years when I went out with George on the town to celebrate his birthday. Had a skin full of real ale at various pubs and got a lot of exercise walking between said pubs up and down the hills of Sheff.  Throughly recommend local ska band Jungle Lion which we saw in a crowded late night bar which sold Hobgoblin on draft :)   Ended up at Al’s a mate of George’s gaff with discs being spin early into the morn. As I say time travel 10 years into my past ;)

    It safe to say I’ve spent the last three weeks or so not knowing whether I was coming or going. Its quite strange, like a tidal wave rippling through my psyche.  So I’ve learnt how to balance myself and stay happy and calm no matter what, focusing alot of techniques I’ve learnt over the last twenty years. It all came together in a sold and tangable form at the begining of the week in an experience that I can describe as highly spiritual.

    So now there are no ceilings, no worries, no fear :)

    Time to watch it all peacefully unfold.

    Mirrored from Newtworld.

    Metal, RPG Geekery and Fatherhood, i.e. business as usual

    Been a while since I updated but here’s a summary of what I’ve been upto (… come the bullet points).

    Beating off the Winter Blooz, lets face it kids its still cold out there. Doesn’t mean it has to be in here 😉

    Metal!!!! Went to see Metallica at the MEN Arena last night with Nice Andy. Had tea at the Marble Arch, a real ale pub and microbrewery coming out of Manchester. Really nice grub and serveral of their lovely beers left me a bit worse for wear later.  Best of all though discovered that their head brewer, James, is a mate from Leeds who left in the mid 90s to learn the art of brewing in Sheffield. Had a very quick catch up and it was damn nice to see him again 🙂  Then onto the souless concreate bowl that is the MEN Arena. Don’t get me wrong Metallica was on form, but the venue really didn’t do it for me. I guess I’m getting too old and grumpy to stand in enormo domes looking down at a group of ants on the stage.

    RPG – steadly working away here. Infinte War my Theme for gspearing ‘s Wordplay was delivered. 7000 words of Timetravelling Weirdness inspired by Fritz Leiber’s The Big Time and Micheal Moorcock’s Jerry Cornellius stories. March’s big thing is going to be SimpleQuest, which dispite some last minitue quibbles over the rules is on track for completetion this weekend. Then the rest of March editing by gspearing  and layout by me. Hearts in Glorantha 3 steadly comes together, with an underwater feature being on the cards with 18 pages of Ocean Monsters by Nick Davison and a 20 page epic Dwarf adventure set in a brass submarine 🙂 Also things are afoot so I’ll be able to get HiG available via a couple of UK shops who also do online for the rest of the world, so you can get a print version without paying the riddiclous P&P charge.

    Father hood – continues to be one of the most vindicating and enjoyable experiences of my life. Evie is growing up fast and continues to be a bright and sparky little girl. Shes well on the way to being fully potty trained after a week of trying and her talking is coming on strong. Oh and she doesn’t walk anywhere, she runs! Just like her late Great Grandmother Ethel 🙂

    Further information

    Keep the Lasagna Flying

    Heck you turn your back for one second and one of your personal culture heroes pops his clogs.

    It is deep regret that I have to inform you that Robert Anton Wilson passed away on Jan 11th of this year.

    If you have any interest in Literature please go read The Illuminatus Trilogy

    If you have any interest in movies please track down and absorb his screenplay Reality is what you can get away with

    Robert Anton Wilson brought to you by the number 23, the Goddess Eris and the Illuminati (strangely at the same time) and Cats in Boxes that may or may not be dead.

    His final words from his blog

    “Various medical authorities swarm in and out of here predicting I have between two days and two months to live. I think they are guessing. I remain cheerful and unimpressed. I look forward without dogmatic optimism but without dread. I love you all and I deeply implore you to keep the lasagna flying.

    Please pardon my levity, I don’t see how to take death seriously. It seems absurd.